Have you ever been around someone in a good mood, what about someone in a bad mood? How does someone else’s mood impact you?
A few days ago I woke up in the wrong frame of mind. I felt sad, angry, depressed and alone. At the time I was not sure why I felt this way, I only knew that I did not want this feeling to set the tone for the day. My time with God that morning was forced, all I wanted to do was to feel what I was feeling, but I made myself pray and read anyway. Afterwards I still felt the same.
I had a lot to do on this day, my husband had a thing (no specifics – I will call it a thing) happening at our house later in the day. I felt as though the bulk of the preparations fell on my shoulders, after all this was his thing, other than the preparation it had nothing to do with me (one of my thoughts at the time).
I went into my office to start preparing for what I needed to do for the day (creating my to-do list) and made myself stop before starting and told myself, “think about what you are thinking about to find out why you feel this way.”
What was I thinking?
- This is a weekend day at the tail-end of an extremely busy week and all I want to do is relax.
- Instead of getting to relax I have to do all this stuff and get the bulk of it finished by early afternoon.
- Later I have to cook and clean up afterwards for dinner guest.
- None of this is for me, but instead for others.
- What I am doing is not appreciated.
- Why does everyone take advantage of me?
Do you notice the theme here – me, me, I, me, poor, poor me. I had put myself into a victims mentality frame of mind.
I knew I needed to change my thinking, so I prayed about it and tried to think about something else. This worked for a couple of minutes and then I found my mind (thoughts) right back where I started. I continued this several times, asking God to change my thinking and found myself back at square one again and again.
As I was driving to the grocery store, continuing the same conversation with God and self, suddenly I was reminded (I believe by God) to stop focusing on the negative but instead be thankful for the positive. So I started stating, out loud, what I was thankful for and by the time I arrived at the store my attitude had turned around 180 degrees and I was looking forward to the day’s events.
It is not always easy to think about what you are thinking about and the difficult task of changing your thinking, but it is well worth the effort. I believe the more I practice this the easier it will become and the more positive I will become.
An even more difficult task is to determine what triggered the thoughts in the first place. I will cover this in the next blog post.
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