Silly Exercise Sparks Change

What do you like about yourself? What do you dislike about yourself? Have you ever given this any thought?

A few months ago I was lead to write two lists, this first was what I like about myself and second what I dislike about myself. I quickly came up with a page full of dislikes but was at a loss on the like list. It took me several days, of serious soul searching before I was able to come up with a like to place on the list. A couple of weeks later I was able to come up with a second like to put on the list. My conclusion was that I really do not like myself – what an eye-opener!

This may seem like a silly exercise but for me it sparked a desire for change. I am tired of beating myself up. It is not what others think about us that matters, it is what we think about ourselves that counts. How we feel about ourselves has a direct impact on those closest to us. If we are to love our neighbors as ourselves (Mark 12:31, Paraphrased from the Bible) than we need to start loving ourselves. It may take time but I am willing to put forth the necessary effort for me to see myself in a whole new light.

How we feel about ourselves impacts how we think, feel and behave. Loving self does not mean we are being selfish but instead it leads to a happier and healthier you. It may take time, little by little, but change and love of self is possible. Are you ready to take that first step towards loving yourself today?

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P.S. By the way, being fickle was at the top of my dislike list and I am already seeing this changing.

Please Pass the Fickle

Imagine a table set before you filled to overflowing with all kinds of choices. When you eat from these something happens in a place known as you. Maybe you ate some positive self-worth, self-love or inner joy or maybe you chose the item I choose most often.  As much as I crave the positive choices I seem to always choose fickle.

The definition of fickle is; deceitful, inconstant, marked by lack of steadfastness… (Merriam-Webster’s). The word that stands out and best describes me is deceitful. Am I a liar? Yes! Who do I lie to? Myself! Countless times over the years I have put together “action plans” for self-improvement. And countless times I have found myself, even if I start out in the right direction, right back where I started. Why? Lack of accountability!

If I am the only one holding myself accountable it is easy for me to blame others, blame circumstances…(the blame game will be discussed in a later post). Granted, it is up to me to hold myself accountable for my inner well-being, which is what this blog is about, finding what works best for me and that happens to be holding myself accountable to those reading and/or following my blog.

Please pass the fickle. Do you find yourself choosing fickle over and over again? If this is you, keep searching until you find what works best for your own self-accountability.

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References:

Merriam-Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary. 11th Edition (2012).

Undressing My Soul

The fear is overwhelming as I find myself standing before an audience of hundreds maybe even thousands. I am preparing to slowly, layer by layer, undress my soul. I can feel the dread rising inside and yet at the same time it is mixed with excitement as I ready myself to face the enemies that live in my mind and to heal my injured soul.

Self-doubt, insecurities, lack of confidence, lack of self-worth and many other enemies fill my mind daily. I am tired of running, tired of hiding, tired of suffering silently and most of all tired of my self-destructive thoughts poisoning my relationships with self and others.

I know that the real me is in here somewhere and I will continue to work through each painful layer until I find the person I am supposed to be not the one I became.

I know I have many battles ahead, some I will win and some I will lose. My goal is to win the war no matter how hard or how long it takes. My hopes are that by sharing my daily battles with others that those who also suffer from the same self-destructive thought processes will discover that healing is possible.

Are you ready to journey with me on the road to recovery and a life filled with self-acceptance and self-love?